Thanks for sharing your story Bill, it's always interesting reading people's life story and journey.Many of you have known since childhood that the world was more than it seems. Not me, I was asleep most of my life. Mom, Dad, and two older sisters. Raised in a non-religious setting, just never discussed, no church-going. Though I do recall some interesting chats with Mom where she wondered what happened after a person died. But no religious exposure except in my teens I went to a Methodist church a couple of time because a girl I was hot for went there and it was a way to get off of the farm for a few hours and get into town. Needless to say, the religious part of it didn't stick.
Left home at 17 and joined the Navy, serving on submarines after getting extensive technical training. Over time developed an atheistic view, but kept it in the closet as it was not socially acceptable. I was all about science and observable fact, no mumbo-jumbo for me...that was for those who just weren't intelligent enough to understand and accept a provable reality. And "organized" religion....what a scam and with a horrible historical track record of death and destruction across the ages to force their view on others.
Post-Navy worked in the commercial nuclear industry and lived all over the US, moving every couple of years to a new locale where I could get paid for my services. Married for 18 years to a woman who pursued with vigor her development into a full fledged alcoholic. No kids. Divorced. Fully asleep during that time with no thought of the inner world or things beyond myself.
At the time of my divorce, in retrospect, I had my first notable non-science explainable experience. I awoke one night from an absolutely vivid dream and sat bolt upright in bed. I'd dreamt of a woman (Rhonda) I knew and had had a relationship with from 22 years ago. We had known each other while both in the Navy and stationed in Hawaii. She was dating someone else and we were just friends. In the world of submarines back then a missile carrying submarine had a Blue and a Gold crew. This two-crew mechanism allowed the submarine to stay at sea most of the year providing nuclear deterrence (this was at the height of the cold war in the 1970s') without burning out the crew. Crew rotations occurred on a roughly 100 day cycle. Her boyfriend was my counterpart on the other crew (I was Blue he was Gold) and so when I was in port in Hawaii, he was away at sea on the submarine, and vice versa. So, one of the times when I was back in Hawaii she had broken off the relationship with him. And our relationship turned romantic. But before (seconds before!) it was fully consummated physically she pulled back. I of course honored her choice but didn't understand. (Neither did she at that time...it wasn't until years later that I found out why during a QHHT session.) Anyway, it was my turn to go to sea and when I came back she had reconnected with prior boyfriend and they were engaged to be married. I ended up going to their wedding...which certainly caused some consternation among other participants. Have quite a nice picture of myself standing next to her in her bride dress! I saw her again once after the wedding and then no communication at all for over 18 years. Shortly there after I got married myself as discussed above. Rhonda was married for about 8 years, had a daughter, and then got a divorce and was living as a single mom in her home town.
So, after having this vivid dream of Rhonda I searched the internet to find a number for her in her hometown and call her. As it turned out (although I didn't know it) the number I had found wasn't actually hers but that of her grandmother. But when I called it Rhonda "happened" to be standing next to the phone and picked it up. We had a conversation as if we had last talked that morning, not nearly 20 years past. And then that night she called me back ...and we talked much longer. Within a week I went from Florida to California to see her. By the end of that weekend we were planning moving in together and that happened within a month. This was in 1998. The plan was the two of us would have a nice comfortable life together, travel, and have fun. But that changed when Rhonda's 17 yo daughter from her prior marriage, who had been living with her father, came to visit and then asked to move in with us. And then 4 months later she got pregnant from some sperm-donor who, thankfully, exited the scene. So the "just Rhonda and me" plan turned within a few months into me having a full family and ultimately me becoming the father figure to both the daughter, and later the child (daughter). This was the plan the universe had for me, which in retrospect I had created for myself to occur during this incarnation....but at the time I was blind to the whole thing.
In 2000 I moved to Texas to take a job in a dot.com company...and that went belly up a couple of years later when the dot.com bubble burst. Then found a job in the oil & gas industry. I was still fully asleep. Rhonda and I, in full agreement with her daughter, ended up taking legal guardianship of the child as we were better able to support her and the mom still had growing up to do herself. There was no animosity about this and it was an extended family situation. (In fact the child, now 16 OMG!, has been back living with her now married mom for a few years). Around 2012 (in retrospect) I think I'm becoming dissatisfied with my job and so orchestrate a different position with same company. I'm not realizing at the time what the source of my dissatisfaction is. No real improvement, still feeling antsy but since I had at this point never looked inside I was not catching on to what was happening to me. I was being told to wake up but wasn't listening.
Finally in Aug 2014 Rhonda and I are watching a movie on Netflix (Heaven is Real) and one of the characters in the "based on a true story" movie is a very young girl with exceptional skills at painting pictures of Jesus. I noted her name and after the movie did a Google search to learn more about her. Somehow through the links that came up I found linkages into how quantum mechanics and consciousness were connected. Ah, quantum mechanics!! Real hard science, not mumbo jumbo. So it was OK for me to explore more into these things, because you know, it was about science. And down the rabbit hole I went, ass over elbows. I could NOT get enough, fast enough. For essentially 3 months every waking minute I had when I didn't HAVE to be doing something else I spent in a most accelerated learning process. Since then the pace has backed off from max turbo mode to full speed and with occasional brief timeouts to do other things.
I have moved reasonably quickly up the learning curve, making up for lost time as I didn't start until I was 60. Rhonda had been supportive of my journey although she's not ready to dive in herself (but I can tell my energy is affecting her and she's moving a bit faster along her path).
I realize we all have our awakening at the time and pace we are meant to and that is just right for us.
In the town where I live I found a guy (ex-submariner...what a coincidence, ha!) who had a meet-up group where he talked about spiritual growth, including his dramatic experiences ( he has a book out, 11 Days in May). I started learning. Through that connection I found a wonderful healer/coach up in Dallas, Launa, and met with her several times. During our first session she was doing energy work on my and had my 2nd chakra just absolutely vibrating. And then later she moved to my head and said she was going to "amp it up now" and started sending these huge energy waves from my head down through my body. This was when the metaphysical went from being something I'd read about to something I felt and knew with certainty. More work with her over the months helped me clear some long standing blockages and gain confidence.
2015 was all more development, learning, reading, experiencing. Brian Weisse, David Wilcock, Corey Goode, Dolores Cannon, and on and on and on. Found Transients via the posting of an article that Martin wrote. Felt very pulled into the group here and certain individuals. By the fall of 2015 I felt guided to orchestrate a gathering of some people with a goal of moving forward with a way to help others who are awakening accelerate their growth and development and avoid the pitfalls, dead ends, and charlatans that exist along the path one walks. At the time I used the term "Palchemy" (Purpose Alchemy) to describe what I meant and I had a vision to create a large community of folks working together to accomplish this. So I orchestrated a meeting in February of 2016 of people I felt guided to have attend. This was way out of my prior character as I helped bring together people I had never met. In particular Laron coming from NZ and Henda from France, both of whom stayed with Rhonda and me during their time in the US. And Kristy and Launa and Tammy Kilgore and Kari came too and Linda and Anne joined our sessions via Skype. Latriza Petrie and Brooke were in the mix but the universe guided them in a different way at that time. It was a wonderful few days together and Henda wove her magic on all of us. We were all meant to be together for that time and strengthen the bonds between us. Henda used her skills to perform The Reconnection on me and others (different from Reconnective Healing which can be done remotely). Me experience was absolutely profound and I had never experienced anything like it. Hugely powerful. And I think others had even stronger experiences than mind. Mind blowing. Shortly after the gathering in February I was guided to see that the goals I aspired toward achieving with the Palchemy concept were best achieved via the Transients community.
And during 2016 I've gained much better clarity on the purpose of my life. In a recent reading I had I received this insight and believe it sums up nicely what I am here for:
You are here on this planet to teach people the “let go and let God” principle, to have trust and confidence in the universal unfolding of events. You teach people how to learn to cope with unexpected changes in their lives and to go within to find that quiet calm and spiritual place to handle life’s problems. Because this is what you will teach people, first you have had to learn this yourself, so you would have had all those worries and problems that would lead you to a knowledge of this. You can counsel and talk people through difficulties as you will know how to get over self-defeating problems.So I'm in a pretty good place now, much learning still ahead but more comfortable with me and what I am doing. I find myself moving past the worries of the cabal and collapse (while noting that it could happen) and knowing that it is all just part of our collective transition to a better world we are choosing to create for ourselves. I am doing work to further expand my consciousness and ability to tap into it more readily. Went to a course at The Monroe Institute in June and have other consciousness expanding approaches, including the plant medicine trip to Peru next year, in the works. There are other individuals here I continue to work with on a one-on-one basis (you know who you are!) that I feel guided towards. And I'm sure more will be shown to me when the time is right. They are the ones that really help me grow and I am humbled by having the opportunity to know, work with, and learn from them.