i have never considered myself as being spiritual at all, but recent events have drawn my attention to a more spiritual perspective of life.
it all started when i was a teenager, back then, i would smoke weed all day/everyday, and sometimes when i got high, i would start feeling a strange sensation inside of myself, it felt like a buzzing sensation that would move around freely through out my entire body, it would become so intense that i would have to lay down and try to sleep it off, while doing this, i would usually start feeling a extremely powerful sensation at the base of spine that was swirling around.ever since then, i could always feel something inside of me, its hard to explain what it feels like, but its there. recently, i decided to be honest with myself and accept that what im feeling inside of me is actually there and is not simply my imagination.so one night while laying down for sleep, i began to focus on the stuff i feel inside me, after a few minuets of this, reality hit me like a ton of bricks, i suddenly just knew that was i was feeling was my energy, i somehow knew that what i was feeling was the energy of the universe all around me. it felt as if i was connected to everything that exist. i know, its crazy hard to explain this experience properly
so right after i realize i was feeling energy, i started to feel that swirling energy force at the base of my spine.this time it became extremely powerful and tried to shoot itself up my spine. this force was so strong that i felt that i would be harmed if i allowed it to travel up my spine, so i forced myself out of it.
even now, i can begin to feel this strong, swirling force whenever i chose to look for the feeling of it. it seems it only happens when i look for it and allow it to happen.should i allow it to do as it wants? can i get harmed from this energy? what is the actual cause of activating this energy? is it the act of focusing on the energy within me or is something else? is what i experienced even the kunalini energy?
it all started when i was a teenager, back then, i would smoke weed all day/everyday, and sometimes when i got high, i would start feeling a strange sensation inside of myself, it felt like a buzzing sensation that would move around freely through out my entire body, it would become so intense that i would have to lay down and try to sleep it off, while doing this, i would usually start feeling a extremely powerful sensation at the base of spine that was swirling around.ever since then, i could always feel something inside of me, its hard to explain what it feels like, but its there. recently, i decided to be honest with myself and accept that what im feeling inside of me is actually there and is not simply my imagination.so one night while laying down for sleep, i began to focus on the stuff i feel inside me, after a few minuets of this, reality hit me like a ton of bricks, i suddenly just knew that was i was feeling was my energy, i somehow knew that what i was feeling was the energy of the universe all around me. it felt as if i was connected to everything that exist. i know, its crazy hard to explain this experience properly
so right after i realize i was feeling energy, i started to feel that swirling energy force at the base of my spine.this time it became extremely powerful and tried to shoot itself up my spine. this force was so strong that i felt that i would be harmed if i allowed it to travel up my spine, so i forced myself out of it.
even now, i can begin to feel this strong, swirling force whenever i chose to look for the feeling of it. it seems it only happens when i look for it and allow it to happen.should i allow it to do as it wants? can i get harmed from this energy? what is the actual cause of activating this energy? is it the act of focusing on the energy within me or is something else? is what i experienced even the kunalini energy?