Hi all,
You can skip the bold section below if you like, but I'd advise that you read it in order to understand a bit more about me. I know it's a bore to read such inane drivel, but it might save unnecessary conflict in the future. I raise this because I'm new to the forum and do not wish to get off on the wrong foot with anyone. Hopefully this will never be an issue, but I've found it good practice to highlight these things in the past.
I'll only mention this the once, so don't worry about future spam.. and I apologise for the verbose nature of the post. I'm usually a great deal more succinct, but I'm new here and... argh. So many things on my mind that I need to get out:
Before I set out with this post, please be aware that I am not seeking to undermine anyone's belief system here. I'm a natural sceptic (I believe a healthy dose of scepticism is almost always prudent!) but I'm also open minded insofar as my own experiences permit... and I've had quite a few, I assure you. Also, one need only look at some of the latest discoveries in various scientific fields to come to the conclusion that we're a long way off fully understanding the nature of the universe and, probably even more importantly, consciousness. In other words, I am open-minded because we don't yet have all the answers and I have personally glimpsed 'the other side'. There's a lot of room for speculation, shall we say.
Point being, if I come across as quite contentious please be assured that it isn't purposeful. I'm here to learn and hopefully grow. I do so by asking questions and sometimes taking the hard line. I do certainly encourage debate, but it is never my intention to initiate by way of lighting a fire, as it were.
Ach... I'm rambling. Basically, I'm known in real life as a genuinely good guy, but also incredibly forthright and somewhat argumentative. It hasn't been uncommon (unfortunately) for me to upset another person because of these traits. From my perspective, we were having a polite conversation with a little mental sparring interspersed. From their perspective, I was ripping them a new one. I seem to fail at grasping the more delicate aspects of interaction. If anyone is an MBTI fan here, note that I am (a professionally confirmed) INTJ. That says it all, really
PLEASE tell me if I'm coming across too strong. It isn't my intention. Ever. Regardless, I have to face the facts: I am who I am, so I'm passing out my disclaimer 'just in case'
If at any point you think my behaviour or attitude is unacceptable, I implore you to tell me. I have incredibly thick skin, so do not be worried about offending me. I promise you, you won't; more likely, you'll be thanked for highlighting crappy behaviour on my part.
So, with that in mind...
The Starseed thing bothers me. Not in and of itself, mind; going out on a limb, it certainly isn't inconceivable that we are in fact conscious beings simply inhabiting vessels and therefore not 'human'. From there, it doesn't take much of a leap to arrive at the conclusion that consciousness could take many forms across the universe - and maybe even have an agenda upon arrival. Add to this the recent research I have been conducting into reincarnation (who knew there were so many clear cut cases? Wow!) and I'm starting to get an increasingly complete and rather intriguing picture.
In some ways, then, the idea of a 'Star seed' could well make sense. Perhaps consciousness is connected somehow, and for some as yet unknown reason we zip about the universe acting as a counter-balance. Achieve optimal conditions in one area; move to another to aid with the efforts there; rinse and repeat. Again, not (in my mind) inconceivable.
No, what bothers me is the fact that I am supposedly a starseed myself... and I'm really not comfortable with that.
Long story short, I've had a lifetime of strange experiences. By and large I acknowledged them by way of thinking "Huh? Cool." and whilst I did some preliminary toe-dipping into the field(s) pertaining to the metaphysical whilst younger, I ultimately became very despondent with the whole thing because I was running in to special snowflake after special snowflake. Or, to put it more plainly, very poorly developed individuals playing make-believe. I realise now that my mistake was looking to the external for guidance. Really, I should have been looking within.
Anyway, aforementioned 'events' were, as I said, predominantly ignored. A cursory and occasional raised eyebrow seemed to be my default response for quite a few years. I simply assumed that this stuff was normal, and was entirely permitted by the laws of physics - a field which our finest minds are still grappling with. 'Interesting anomalies' is how I saw them. Sincerely, I thought pretty much everyone had a run in with these kinds of events every once in a while. I didn't see them as unique to me. I just assumed they were happening around me and I was in the right place at the right time. Oh how stupid I was. Still am, maybe!
One day in 2014 however, I got talking with a chap who is interested in all of this stuff. It became apparent that in fact I was outside of 'the norm' as according to his own experiences and fairly extensive research, a great many people never have anything strange happen.
Said chat combined with a close friend suddenly reminding me of events I had long since suppressed the memories of (very unexpected; said friend is 100% sceptic and never usually speaks of these things) set me off on a trail of further inquiry. I began to connect the dots and a rather disconcerting pattern began to emerge. At one point, things seemed rather dark. I thought I was losing my mind. Reality began to slip away... it wasn't my finest moment.
In a strange and frenzied state, I compiled a 6800+ word document which noted some of the events I remember, then posted it on a forum which dealt with this sort of stuff. The process was somehow both cathartic yet terrifying. I felt like I was dredging things up from the depths that wanted to stay buried. It was dark and at times filled me with dread, but I had to get it all out there. I'm glad I did - the thread went pretty wild and I was quickly pointed towards MUFON. I pondered for a while and then thought "Screw it, why not". MUFON were quick to advise that I seek a professional hypnotherapist to take me through regression. Still somewhat sceptical, I agreed because enigma is my bag. Consciousness is arguably the greatest enigma and I enjoy experiencing altered states of it. So, sure - I went.
One thing about me: I have an impeccable BS detector. Seriously. If there's one thing I'm good at in this life, it's spotting a BSer. I can smell them coming a country mile off. Much to my surprise (hey - I'm only human; judgemental can sometimes describe me
) I was greeted by a woman who did not set my detector off at all. She was young (slightly older than me, maybe mid 30s), softly spoken and very sincere. She told me about her roots. She had come from Australia (all of this is taking place in the UK, by the way) and her parents were in to Paganism, Druidism... all that fancy pants stuff. In short, she had grown up around spiritual people and had embarked on her own journey down the path very early on in life.
She seemed really together, so I went ahead.
What I saw whilst under... I won't go in to it. I treated it as entertainment, assuming that my brain was making images up. We all know how iffy regression can be, so - meh. It is what it is.
But as I left, she threw me a bone:
"The second I opened the door, I knew you were not from here. You come from a place far, far away". I laughed and replied with something along the lines of "Africa?" She shook her head and pointed skyward.
Later, she emailed materials pertaining to star seeds and hybrids, etc. "Great. More new age nonsense" was my initial reaction, but in the spirit of open-mindedness I'm (now) interested in exploring.
So, FINALLY - to the questions!
Is there any way I can verify this? I've looked at all the check-list things. Yeah, I feel like an alien in this world and yeah, I feel like I have a mission but I don't know what that is. Those points (and more) can be explained by taking my cognitive preferences (Ni; Te) into account. So, no dice there.
I guess I'd like to know:
A) is there really something to this 'star seed' thing, or is someone yanking my chain?
and
B) if there is something to it, how do I verify? Can I verify?
Thanks, and if you made it to the end of all this inane waffling, you deserve a medal!
- P
You can skip the bold section below if you like, but I'd advise that you read it in order to understand a bit more about me. I know it's a bore to read such inane drivel, but it might save unnecessary conflict in the future. I raise this because I'm new to the forum and do not wish to get off on the wrong foot with anyone. Hopefully this will never be an issue, but I've found it good practice to highlight these things in the past.
I'll only mention this the once, so don't worry about future spam.. and I apologise for the verbose nature of the post. I'm usually a great deal more succinct, but I'm new here and... argh. So many things on my mind that I need to get out:
Before I set out with this post, please be aware that I am not seeking to undermine anyone's belief system here. I'm a natural sceptic (I believe a healthy dose of scepticism is almost always prudent!) but I'm also open minded insofar as my own experiences permit... and I've had quite a few, I assure you. Also, one need only look at some of the latest discoveries in various scientific fields to come to the conclusion that we're a long way off fully understanding the nature of the universe and, probably even more importantly, consciousness. In other words, I am open-minded because we don't yet have all the answers and I have personally glimpsed 'the other side'. There's a lot of room for speculation, shall we say.
Point being, if I come across as quite contentious please be assured that it isn't purposeful. I'm here to learn and hopefully grow. I do so by asking questions and sometimes taking the hard line. I do certainly encourage debate, but it is never my intention to initiate by way of lighting a fire, as it were.
Ach... I'm rambling. Basically, I'm known in real life as a genuinely good guy, but also incredibly forthright and somewhat argumentative. It hasn't been uncommon (unfortunately) for me to upset another person because of these traits. From my perspective, we were having a polite conversation with a little mental sparring interspersed. From their perspective, I was ripping them a new one. I seem to fail at grasping the more delicate aspects of interaction. If anyone is an MBTI fan here, note that I am (a professionally confirmed) INTJ. That says it all, really
PLEASE tell me if I'm coming across too strong. It isn't my intention. Ever. Regardless, I have to face the facts: I am who I am, so I'm passing out my disclaimer 'just in case'
If at any point you think my behaviour or attitude is unacceptable, I implore you to tell me. I have incredibly thick skin, so do not be worried about offending me. I promise you, you won't; more likely, you'll be thanked for highlighting crappy behaviour on my part.
So, with that in mind...
The Starseed thing bothers me. Not in and of itself, mind; going out on a limb, it certainly isn't inconceivable that we are in fact conscious beings simply inhabiting vessels and therefore not 'human'. From there, it doesn't take much of a leap to arrive at the conclusion that consciousness could take many forms across the universe - and maybe even have an agenda upon arrival. Add to this the recent research I have been conducting into reincarnation (who knew there were so many clear cut cases? Wow!) and I'm starting to get an increasingly complete and rather intriguing picture.
In some ways, then, the idea of a 'Star seed' could well make sense. Perhaps consciousness is connected somehow, and for some as yet unknown reason we zip about the universe acting as a counter-balance. Achieve optimal conditions in one area; move to another to aid with the efforts there; rinse and repeat. Again, not (in my mind) inconceivable.
No, what bothers me is the fact that I am supposedly a starseed myself... and I'm really not comfortable with that.
Long story short, I've had a lifetime of strange experiences. By and large I acknowledged them by way of thinking "Huh? Cool." and whilst I did some preliminary toe-dipping into the field(s) pertaining to the metaphysical whilst younger, I ultimately became very despondent with the whole thing because I was running in to special snowflake after special snowflake. Or, to put it more plainly, very poorly developed individuals playing make-believe. I realise now that my mistake was looking to the external for guidance. Really, I should have been looking within.
Anyway, aforementioned 'events' were, as I said, predominantly ignored. A cursory and occasional raised eyebrow seemed to be my default response for quite a few years. I simply assumed that this stuff was normal, and was entirely permitted by the laws of physics - a field which our finest minds are still grappling with. 'Interesting anomalies' is how I saw them. Sincerely, I thought pretty much everyone had a run in with these kinds of events every once in a while. I didn't see them as unique to me. I just assumed they were happening around me and I was in the right place at the right time. Oh how stupid I was. Still am, maybe!
One day in 2014 however, I got talking with a chap who is interested in all of this stuff. It became apparent that in fact I was outside of 'the norm' as according to his own experiences and fairly extensive research, a great many people never have anything strange happen.
Said chat combined with a close friend suddenly reminding me of events I had long since suppressed the memories of (very unexpected; said friend is 100% sceptic and never usually speaks of these things) set me off on a trail of further inquiry. I began to connect the dots and a rather disconcerting pattern began to emerge. At one point, things seemed rather dark. I thought I was losing my mind. Reality began to slip away... it wasn't my finest moment.
In a strange and frenzied state, I compiled a 6800+ word document which noted some of the events I remember, then posted it on a forum which dealt with this sort of stuff. The process was somehow both cathartic yet terrifying. I felt like I was dredging things up from the depths that wanted to stay buried. It was dark and at times filled me with dread, but I had to get it all out there. I'm glad I did - the thread went pretty wild and I was quickly pointed towards MUFON. I pondered for a while and then thought "Screw it, why not". MUFON were quick to advise that I seek a professional hypnotherapist to take me through regression. Still somewhat sceptical, I agreed because enigma is my bag. Consciousness is arguably the greatest enigma and I enjoy experiencing altered states of it. So, sure - I went.
One thing about me: I have an impeccable BS detector. Seriously. If there's one thing I'm good at in this life, it's spotting a BSer. I can smell them coming a country mile off. Much to my surprise (hey - I'm only human; judgemental can sometimes describe me
She seemed really together, so I went ahead.
What I saw whilst under... I won't go in to it. I treated it as entertainment, assuming that my brain was making images up. We all know how iffy regression can be, so - meh. It is what it is.
But as I left, she threw me a bone:
"The second I opened the door, I knew you were not from here. You come from a place far, far away". I laughed and replied with something along the lines of "Africa?" She shook her head and pointed skyward.
Later, she emailed materials pertaining to star seeds and hybrids, etc. "Great. More new age nonsense" was my initial reaction, but in the spirit of open-mindedness I'm (now) interested in exploring.
So, FINALLY - to the questions!
Is there any way I can verify this? I've looked at all the check-list things. Yeah, I feel like an alien in this world and yeah, I feel like I have a mission but I don't know what that is. Those points (and more) can be explained by taking my cognitive preferences (Ni; Te) into account. So, no dice there.
I guess I'd like to know:
A) is there really something to this 'star seed' thing, or is someone yanking my chain?
and
B) if there is something to it, how do I verify? Can I verify?
Thanks, and if you made it to the end of all this inane waffling, you deserve a medal!
- P