When I write about ideas and feelings, I'm sharing what I've experienced because, well, what else is there. So, with all you've shared and some more insights on my part, I think I have the basic idea now.
Awhile back I had the vision of the interior of a torus field and heard "this is your gift". I read and contemplated many ideas, and yesterday, I received an important piece of the puzzle. A friend called me in great distress about a family situation. As I was talking to her, I realized that I was speaking from my heart. I can tell when this happens because my brain is not thinking about what to say - the words just come. Sometimes I even find myself aware of what I said, and thinking "that was pretty good". Many people have told me that I say just what they needed to hear at the time.
Back to yesterday - as I hung up the phone, I heard again "this is your gift".
Now I get it - when we speak, think, feel, act from our hearts we are united with a greater energy, which I believe is represented by the torus image. Some time ago, I wrote about having to cut down a much loved tree that was severely damaged in a storm. The night before the tree crew arrived, I went outside to the tree, put my hands on the trunk, and explained how much we all loved it and how important it was to us. Then I felt a warmth from the tree into my hands. The next morning, I said goodby again, and was nearly knocked over with a wave of loving energy. Both times, I was speaking from my heart - no "thought" about the words - they just came.
For all the years the tree was there, I know we interacted in a more superficial way, but those last 2 times, we were united as one - both in the energy of Gaia, which we can visualize as a torus field. This is why I love working at the farm so much - none of the extraneous distractions - just a beautiful place and the bright shining faces of the children.
I look through my earlier questions and think I've answered most of them. Then I got to the last one - is there something like a jackass torus energy? I don't think so - the field structure cannot be maintained without love. Then I thought about some people I know (no one here) and considered our great differences in beliefs, yet, if I was in great need of help, seeing them drive up would be a welcome sight. Why - because that basic link of love is there.
I believe the great changes we are seeing on a personal, local, national, and global level are indications of the strengthening of this connection through love, which we can understand both intuitively, as well as scientifically. Those of us who are more aware must have a large torus energy field that affects any who come near. I think this is what we were working with in the last group meditation - the blending of colors, energies, and sharing far and wide.
So, I lift my glass to you all, and thank you all for setting out on this trip of discovery with me - I think we are in exciting times.