Hello everybody!
Im quite alright and very blessed this time.
I am in love with life, and all what I can do I will do.
But there is something, that i cant resist in my life.
I wont send smiles to other people. I dont really like to send a smile to the normal person.
I often feel so affected, when I smile. I feel like a laserpointer.
And when I smile, I point into some ones face.
I almost fear to present my smile to others face.
I often feel so much shame, and blame myself before i let it go.
It makes me so depressiv, that i cant show my natural smile naturally to the society people.
I almost feel catched by it, because, laughter breaks out, if other people see it.
I often feel stressed, when other have seen it. I often got nervous, when I have to show it.
Its easier to hide, because its no prob for me to hide it.
I often make myself sorrows, how to work out a positiv smile, even and until i do it.
I often think, that its negatively descripted and determined. So I feel mostly strange and blamshamed.
I dont know, how to solve that problem. Its easy, and I only have to smile with others. But my imagination is so fearful, what others would might think, if theyll go to see this. They would call me crazy or would make me ill instead. So i try to hide my self infront of my thinkings and thoughts.... but its helpless, and time will show, my smile more often..... but i fear to let it go..... often have visions, that people will hate me then, even ill go to show it up...
:-( Anyone tipps, whadda god too do?
Best regards
Re-Direct-90
Im quite alright and very blessed this time.
I am in love with life, and all what I can do I will do.
But there is something, that i cant resist in my life.
I wont send smiles to other people. I dont really like to send a smile to the normal person.
I often feel so affected, when I smile. I feel like a laserpointer.
And when I smile, I point into some ones face.
I almost fear to present my smile to others face.
I often feel so much shame, and blame myself before i let it go.
It makes me so depressiv, that i cant show my natural smile naturally to the society people.
I almost feel catched by it, because, laughter breaks out, if other people see it.
I often feel stressed, when other have seen it. I often got nervous, when I have to show it.
Its easier to hide, because its no prob for me to hide it.
I often make myself sorrows, how to work out a positiv smile, even and until i do it.
I often think, that its negatively descripted and determined. So I feel mostly strange and blamshamed.
I dont know, how to solve that problem. Its easy, and I only have to smile with others. But my imagination is so fearful, what others would might think, if theyll go to see this. They would call me crazy or would make me ill instead. So i try to hide my self infront of my thinkings and thoughts.... but its helpless, and time will show, my smile more often..... but i fear to let it go..... often have visions, that people will hate me then, even ill go to show it up...
:-( Anyone tipps, whadda god too do?
Best regards
Re-Direct-90