well, i dont know where to begin lol.i just experienced something really insane and im not sure what to think of it, im not ruling out the possibility that i may be suffering from severe hallucinations, maybe schizophrenia??
i decided to give meditation a try, i began focusing on feeling the energy inside and out of me, i calmed my mind and did not think of anything, when ever a random thought popped in my mind, i simply noticed it and let it go without judging it ( im not sure if thats how you meditate but i could think of no other way to keep my mind still, i think it may be impossible to actually prevent all thoughts from entering your mind, so the best i could think of to do was to just be aware when my mind starts to wonder and then push my focus back into the current moment) after a while of this, boom, my mind seemed to become very still all on its own without me having to do anything, it was pretty nice actually. best way i can explain it, it was as if a calm, soothing silence washed over my mind, i virtually had no worries or desires, i just simply existed....if that makes any sense lol.
if that last bit wasnt crazy enough for you, listen to what happened next. as i relaxed deeper into this silence, i felt like i was spinning, the more attention i gave it, the stronger and faster the spinning felt. after a couple minuets of spinning, my entire body started vibrating, at first i thought it was either a train passing through ( i live like 100 away from the rail road tracks), or one of my neighbors were blasting music with loud bass.....i quickly learned it was neither of the two once the vibrations became so intense that i felt like i was gonna be ripped apart, a loud rumbling noise followed the intense vibrations. i just went with it, i just wanted to see how far all these sensations would go, then, suddenly, everything went calm and quiet, i noticed i felt strange, i looked around and noticed i was floating...yeah i know, insane right? i was just floating there looking at my pwn body, not moving...
when i first realized i was floating, i was completely depressed because i thought i had died....
i was so confused as to the cause of my death and i was angry that i had no warning, i still had things i wanted to do and i felt like i been cheated out of my goals. but the bright side was that death was not as bad as i thought and at least we still existed in some form after death. so i made my mind up that i would wait for someone to discover my dead body so i could follow my body and maybe hear people talk about the cause of my death, and maybe i could even find a way to communicate with someone. so as i waited for someone to find me, i got board, i decided i would try to fly to the moon just to see what it looked like, so i flew through my roof and started flying strait for the moon, how ever, something cought my attention, it was a very large floating structure at about cloud level. it looked like a round disk ship, just like the classic ufo conspiracy.
it was huge, i would say it was about the size of a small city at least, just massive and metallic in color. after seeing this, there was no other option, i had to go inside it, i mean, i was already dead so what is the worse that could happen??? the moment i made up my mind to go inside, i somehow sensed there was entities inside the ship and that they were telling it was ok to come inside, they found my amazment humorous. im not sure how i actually got inside the ship, its like i just imagined what it would be like to be in there, and then poof, i was there. there was 4 entities i seen once inside.the room i was in was solid white with roundish walls with a transparent tube in the middle that was glowing all sorts of different colors.the entities looked just like us humans, very tall, well build, they were all blonde haired. 3 males and 1 female, and she was very atrractive, more attractive then any other female i have ever seen.....then, i realized they knew what i was thinking and i felt so exsposed. they found it funny though, which didnt help at all, thus, they found even more amusement in the situation. i then turned my attention to the vibe i felt from these entities, i felt that they were pure and honest, no ill will or hostility at all, they were so calm and joyfull. its hard to explain, they were pretty much nothing like humans at all. i began to think about how foul humans are, how we destroy the very planet we live on, how we kill each other, how greedy we are, how most humans are self centered and only care about themselves and there loved ones and to hell with the rest, thought about how through out our entire history, humans have waged war and killed each other for there own selfish reasons and gain. i was pretty much disgusted of my species and i felt very ashamed, i felt like i wasnt even worthy of being in these entities presence, so i decided to leave. right before i poofed out of there ship, they stopped me and said to relax ( none of us used words, it was like a mutual understanding of what the other person was thinking, like esp or something, so i am simply trying my best to translate the event into the english language) so they said to relax and that its fine, that they were not judging me based on the actions and history of my species, and that even there species have bad people. they asked how i came about being able to comprehend them, i told them i died, lol. they said i was not dead, they said i was still connected to my body. they said that i shifted my conscious mind into a alternate state of being. that i was allowing myself to freely travel with in myself...its hard to explain, but they showed me this as if everything external of me was actually inside me...uuh i know. i asked why can humans not see them while in our normal physical state, they said its because they exist outside of the range of the physical bodies range of perception. they had technology that directly manipulated there ships.they showed that everything is vibrating, and that these vibrations is what seperates realities from each other, for instance, our human eyes can only perceive a small spectrum of light, if the wave frequency of light is to low or to high, then we wont be able to see it, the same with sound, if the sound wave is to low or high, then we cant hear it, so pretty much they were saying that them and there ships were operating in the vibrations that are not detectable by human perception or technology. they show me videos on youtube showing how sometimes there ships apear as balls of light then disapear, they said as there ships shifts frequencies that they will briefly become visable to the human eyes, and that some times they do this on purpose for us to see. they showed that my manipulating the very vibration frequencies of there ships, they become able to cut themselves off from the physics of this universe, they become able to freely travel between the fabric of space and time without any resistance, they control there ships with there minds, its like they become one with there ships and this allows them to literally travel between time, realities and dimensions. this is when things start getting fuzzy, i cant seem to remember what exactly happens after this point. i have vague memories of talking with someone who was asking what its like to live on earth and i showed him images of mountains and vast landscapes. also remember a few fragments of someone telling me that the universe can be imagined as static, kinda like the screen of static on a tv, not sure what this means, but at the time of it being explained to me i remember that it made perfect sense to me at the time. after this, i dont remember much at all and next thing i remember is me waking up from this experience.....this stuff is crazy right??? i have lucid dreamed many, many times since i was a child and i know what a lucid dream feels like, and this, was not a lucid dream, it was far greater and real, it felt even more real then how real it feels right now as i type this. this stuff is blowing my mind, im either in dire need of medication or what i experienced is actually real. not sure.at least im not crazy enough to tell anyone i know about this experience lol.
i decided to give meditation a try, i began focusing on feeling the energy inside and out of me, i calmed my mind and did not think of anything, when ever a random thought popped in my mind, i simply noticed it and let it go without judging it ( im not sure if thats how you meditate but i could think of no other way to keep my mind still, i think it may be impossible to actually prevent all thoughts from entering your mind, so the best i could think of to do was to just be aware when my mind starts to wonder and then push my focus back into the current moment) after a while of this, boom, my mind seemed to become very still all on its own without me having to do anything, it was pretty nice actually. best way i can explain it, it was as if a calm, soothing silence washed over my mind, i virtually had no worries or desires, i just simply existed....if that makes any sense lol.
if that last bit wasnt crazy enough for you, listen to what happened next. as i relaxed deeper into this silence, i felt like i was spinning, the more attention i gave it, the stronger and faster the spinning felt. after a couple minuets of spinning, my entire body started vibrating, at first i thought it was either a train passing through ( i live like 100 away from the rail road tracks), or one of my neighbors were blasting music with loud bass.....i quickly learned it was neither of the two once the vibrations became so intense that i felt like i was gonna be ripped apart, a loud rumbling noise followed the intense vibrations. i just went with it, i just wanted to see how far all these sensations would go, then, suddenly, everything went calm and quiet, i noticed i felt strange, i looked around and noticed i was floating...yeah i know, insane right? i was just floating there looking at my pwn body, not moving...
when i first realized i was floating, i was completely depressed because i thought i had died....
i was so confused as to the cause of my death and i was angry that i had no warning, i still had things i wanted to do and i felt like i been cheated out of my goals. but the bright side was that death was not as bad as i thought and at least we still existed in some form after death. so i made my mind up that i would wait for someone to discover my dead body so i could follow my body and maybe hear people talk about the cause of my death, and maybe i could even find a way to communicate with someone. so as i waited for someone to find me, i got board, i decided i would try to fly to the moon just to see what it looked like, so i flew through my roof and started flying strait for the moon, how ever, something cought my attention, it was a very large floating structure at about cloud level. it looked like a round disk ship, just like the classic ufo conspiracy.
it was huge, i would say it was about the size of a small city at least, just massive and metallic in color. after seeing this, there was no other option, i had to go inside it, i mean, i was already dead so what is the worse that could happen??? the moment i made up my mind to go inside, i somehow sensed there was entities inside the ship and that they were telling it was ok to come inside, they found my amazment humorous. im not sure how i actually got inside the ship, its like i just imagined what it would be like to be in there, and then poof, i was there. there was 4 entities i seen once inside.the room i was in was solid white with roundish walls with a transparent tube in the middle that was glowing all sorts of different colors.the entities looked just like us humans, very tall, well build, they were all blonde haired. 3 males and 1 female, and she was very atrractive, more attractive then any other female i have ever seen.....then, i realized they knew what i was thinking and i felt so exsposed. they found it funny though, which didnt help at all, thus, they found even more amusement in the situation. i then turned my attention to the vibe i felt from these entities, i felt that they were pure and honest, no ill will or hostility at all, they were so calm and joyfull. its hard to explain, they were pretty much nothing like humans at all. i began to think about how foul humans are, how we destroy the very planet we live on, how we kill each other, how greedy we are, how most humans are self centered and only care about themselves and there loved ones and to hell with the rest, thought about how through out our entire history, humans have waged war and killed each other for there own selfish reasons and gain. i was pretty much disgusted of my species and i felt very ashamed, i felt like i wasnt even worthy of being in these entities presence, so i decided to leave. right before i poofed out of there ship, they stopped me and said to relax ( none of us used words, it was like a mutual understanding of what the other person was thinking, like esp or something, so i am simply trying my best to translate the event into the english language) so they said to relax and that its fine, that they were not judging me based on the actions and history of my species, and that even there species have bad people. they asked how i came about being able to comprehend them, i told them i died, lol. they said i was not dead, they said i was still connected to my body. they said that i shifted my conscious mind into a alternate state of being. that i was allowing myself to freely travel with in myself...its hard to explain, but they showed me this as if everything external of me was actually inside me...uuh i know. i asked why can humans not see them while in our normal physical state, they said its because they exist outside of the range of the physical bodies range of perception. they had technology that directly manipulated there ships.they showed that everything is vibrating, and that these vibrations is what seperates realities from each other, for instance, our human eyes can only perceive a small spectrum of light, if the wave frequency of light is to low or to high, then we wont be able to see it, the same with sound, if the sound wave is to low or high, then we cant hear it, so pretty much they were saying that them and there ships were operating in the vibrations that are not detectable by human perception or technology. they show me videos on youtube showing how sometimes there ships apear as balls of light then disapear, they said as there ships shifts frequencies that they will briefly become visable to the human eyes, and that some times they do this on purpose for us to see. they showed that my manipulating the very vibration frequencies of there ships, they become able to cut themselves off from the physics of this universe, they become able to freely travel between the fabric of space and time without any resistance, they control there ships with there minds, its like they become one with there ships and this allows them to literally travel between time, realities and dimensions. this is when things start getting fuzzy, i cant seem to remember what exactly happens after this point. i have vague memories of talking with someone who was asking what its like to live on earth and i showed him images of mountains and vast landscapes. also remember a few fragments of someone telling me that the universe can be imagined as static, kinda like the screen of static on a tv, not sure what this means, but at the time of it being explained to me i remember that it made perfect sense to me at the time. after this, i dont remember much at all and next thing i remember is me waking up from this experience.....this stuff is crazy right??? i have lucid dreamed many, many times since i was a child and i know what a lucid dream feels like, and this, was not a lucid dream, it was far greater and real, it felt even more real then how real it feels right now as i type this. this stuff is blowing my mind, im either in dire need of medication or what i experienced is actually real. not sure.at least im not crazy enough to tell anyone i know about this experience lol.
