My family and I have always been very close. We used to always be in each other's business and so butt head a lot. Now Since my awakening, I've felt stranger discomfort interacting with them. They are on their spiritual journey, regular meditators and everything and yet we I am left feeling drained and shaken after I interact with them. I've been trying to find an answer for a while. So a few day ago I just connected to Source and asked for answers.
It turns out I was judging and segregating as much as I thought they were doing to me. I am afraid to be around them because, I am afraid I'll turn into them. I went through much physical and emotional abuse as a child and definately some scars but this is different. So finally as the insight was flowing more freely I figured it out.
We choose as our family, the souls we have the heaviest karmic debt with and pay it off all life so basically I carry in memory lifetimes of negative emotions for the souls who are my current family and now I have to accept them unconditionally to clear this debt.
Afterwards I realized one of my gurus used to say something similar but it never ever registered this way. I find this a tough challenge because I have to do this with my eyes open. ;--)
It turns out I was judging and segregating as much as I thought they were doing to me. I am afraid to be around them because, I am afraid I'll turn into them. I went through much physical and emotional abuse as a child and definately some scars but this is different. So finally as the insight was flowing more freely I figured it out.
We choose as our family, the souls we have the heaviest karmic debt with and pay it off all life so basically I carry in memory lifetimes of negative emotions for the souls who are my current family and now I have to accept them unconditionally to clear this debt.
Afterwards I realized one of my gurus used to say something similar but it never ever registered this way. I find this a tough challenge because I have to do this with my eyes open. ;--)