A healing session with my guide (1 Viewer)

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Abby

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Recently woke up to a 'psychic vision' type thing except it was present in my physical room still sorta. Like I was seeing into the next dimension or plane or whatever there is, where our spirit guides reside. I was laying on my back as I woke up, and I looked down, groggily, and saw that my feet were severed off at the ankles(from my spiritual body, I assume) with red painful energy emitting from them. They looked like they been ripped off, not cleanly severed, actually, as it was rather sharp in one angle at one of the ankles I looked at. Sorry for the graphicness, even if this is was I guess about my spiritual body. Then I noticed what I assume (I just have fears of not being safe or protected all the time, I know it must be my guide I just say this with total disconfidence, sometimes) and she was a cat lady kneeled down at the edge of my bed and she seemed to be tinkering with some sort of healing tools with the bottoms of my feet (one of them actually, the left) and I could feel it was healing energy but it was so slight and in a very small specific spot I almost began to wonder what she was doing there at all if it wasn't going to fix anything at a larger degree. It was all just kind of silly to me in a way. She had a lighthearted energy, and it felt green, like heart chakra, love energy radiating from her, or maybe that's just my memory twisting it, or maybe it's just my memory tapping more into the experience from the past.

Strange thing was, in the past I had written poetry stream of consciousness style (which now what I assume was channeling) and I kept referring to the fact that I had broken feet. Wading in shallow waters with broken feet, looking to go deeper into the water, because there was an upturned boat with an anchor at the bottom and a pile of treasure buried down there underwhere and something about the anchor being trauma and that I cant lift it to get the treasure. Like it was sitting in the pile of treasure and I couldn't get the treasure unless I lifted the anchor through it all. I wish I had the poem, but I through it out with the rest of the journal I kept it in. That was during a time when I was desperately clinging to traditional therapy to fix me. I shifted in and out of spirituality as a sort of crutch, moving to what felt good vs what felt bad in my life, as simplistically put. They taught things in traditional therapy, but it feels very limited. I get more benefit from spiritual healing ( such as for the chakras) videos on youtube than I ever did in trying 7 years of therapy and medications. One healing I payed for had even put me back fully into the present moment and it was amazing, the world felt real and didn't feel like a dream. It's been seven years since I've been in the present moment. Don't know when I'll be back, but my spirit guides and the universe reassure me it'll be soon... patience seems to be a big lesson, I just feel deadened in my heart chakra sometimes, can't feel my emotions at all and the world is grey and dreary, bleak, like I am cut off from love, the feeling of it in general. I feel this grief, and I know where it comes from, it's just so big, and I don;'t know how to find closure from it. I try affirmations and root chakra healings all the time and I go into nature as well with my bare feet, but sometimes I'm just sitting there and i'm trying so hard to be present but I still drift off into the higher up realms, no idea where my minds gone, it's just not there. I feel like i'm meditating with a blank state of mind but im not present and i'm too afraid to tune into what is up in the higher realms because of the fear injuries to do with my root chakra.

So, anyway, I had to get this out today. If you decided to read all of this, thank you for being a listener, it means a lot to my heart. I recently found out my best friend from childhood has been into spirituality all a long, but out of respect of her own emotional boundaries, she was not able to talk about this with me today. So, I posted here. Maybe it will be an interesting read for some of you. It was an emotional release to me.
 
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I listened and offer admiration for sharing so clearly your experiences, as well as support for continued healing.
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One day the crocus is going to be a CROCUS.

(BTW, they grow from a bulb, so of course, you wouldn't feel your feet).


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I've recently discovered how little flow I've had from below in contrast to relatively good flow from above. I'd noticed it myself when I realized I was always tending to reach up for the light with my arms above my head reaching for it (much as in my icon to the left) and one day I realized I could try to reach for energetic flow from below. What a revelation.

was sluggish and slow and too thick to really flow well from below at first. It tugged and petered out. I persisted. I'm glad I did because I did get it going eventually.

Next step was having someone else teach me to do the top-down energy flow and add the bottom-up flow from below my feet. Wow, that took concentration! I can do it now reasonably well and it's been a trip learning. I'm so excited about it that I've put it into our remote group healing exercise for the week since it really helped me when I was so, so tired recently. I did the exercise and felt energized.

I don't know if any of my ramblings will resonate for you and here they are as you really never know (as you write above about your friend) what others around may be doing in their spare time that may be useful :)) :cool:
 
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Abby

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I've recently discovered how little flow I've had from below in contrast to relatively good flow from above. I'd noticed it myself when I realized I was always tending to reach up for the light with my arms above my head reaching for it (much as in my icon to the left) and one day I realized I could try to reach for energetic flow from below. What a revelation.

was sluggish and slow and too thick to really flow well from below at first. It tugged and petered out. I persisted. I'm glad I did because I did get it going eventually.

Next step was having someone else teach me to do the top-down energy flow and add the bottom-up flow from below my feet. Wow, that took concentration! I can do it now reasonably well and it's been a trip learning. I'm so excited about it that I've put it into our remote group healing exercise for the week since it really helped me when I was so, so tired recently. I did the exercise and felt energized.

I don't know if any of my ramblings will resonate for you and here they are as you really never know (as you write above about your friend) what others around may be doing in their spare time that may be useful :)) :cool:
In a way I get what you’re saying. I can definitely flow from top-down and that’s basically how I live life and make sure my thoughts are steady - through Source. Bottom down though, it’s like I can’t make the connection. Like it’s all stopped up, something’s blocking it or something’s just not right. I can feel the healing energies reaching up permeating around my feet, but they don’t enter, sadly. Earlier this night I was taking to that same lyran guide and she was saying “It’s horrible, Asta” but it was in a joking tone, as she was shaking her head with her lips pursed, and I still knew she loved it. It lightens me to know she can view it that way, actually…

I never know how ungrounded and out of touch I come across to others. I always have ton(though I haven’t here due to not realizing it before) put a forewarning before my words because, well, it is what it is. Honestly, it’s like I’m living in another world, up here on my own. Never really feeling what physical life feels like… the calmness that comes with nature. The stillness and the feeling safe and protected. That’s all I want, but my feet are… unfortunately broken, and I’m not sure I can fix them. There are too many unanswered questions up here that came from fears seven years ago that I can’t deal with by myself. I’m seeing a spiritual counseler on Saturday. Hopefully something will come of it.

I do find though, that the animals will speak my pain for me, if I tune into their sound. Sometimes the crickets at night have been dead quiet. No idea why that could be. But it’s insanely triggering to do that and I feel like at root, I am just worried for this planet. Is mother Gaia safe from harm, from anywhere?
I feel I am a starseed and that’s my greatest worry, not knowing if she is safe. And if I don’t know if she is safe, how can I feel safe at night, if I am living on her amongst her people? These are the questions I never have the answers to.
 
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I've recently discovered how little flow I've had from below in contrast to relatively good flow from above. I'd noticed it myself when I realized I was always tending to reach up for the light with my arms above my head reaching for it (much as in my icon to the left) and one day I realized I could try to reach for energetic flow from below. What a revelation.

was sluggish and slow and too thick to really flow well from below at first. It tugged and petered out. I persisted. I'm glad I did because I did get it going eventually.

Next step was having someone else teach me to do the top-down energy flow and add the bottom-up flow from below my feet. Wow, that took concentration! I can do it now reasonably well and it's been a trip learning. I'm so excited about it that I've put it into our remote group healing exercise for the week since it really helped me when I was so, so tired recently. I did the exercise and felt energized.

I don't know if any of my ramblings will resonate for you and here they are as you really never know (as you write above about your friend) what others around may be doing in their spare time that may be useful :)) :cool:
I'm always ready to learn from you, Lila <3
 
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I am just worried for this planet. Is mother Gaia safe from harm, from anywhere?
I feel I am a starseed and that’s my greatest worry, not knowing if she is safe. And if I don’t know if she is safe, how can I feel safe at night, if I am living on her amongst her people? These are the questions I never have the answers to.
So much in that <3
 

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