The fact that you were comfortable enough to be open with your husband about your feelings is WONDERFUL (in my opinion)--and the fact that he seems understanding about your feelings and willing to work on things with you is even better.
With those things going for you, I've no doubt you'll be able to find peace with this situation.If you're still asking the questions, I'd imagine you still have things that need attention. But it sounds like you're already following your "bliss" (that is, working towards the things that make you happy) and going with your own guidance on this. I'd say to just keep trusting that.
I think I have to revert back to my first post on this one. Just focus on the love you feel...that sense of connection with your husband. As long as the two of you have that and you're gentle and patient with one another, I've no doubt that the other things will work out.
So I wasn't sure whether to pm you or share w all. I strongly suggest you try ren meridian acupuncture. I just had my first treatment & it has definitely awakened smth quite beautiful in me. I am feeling the healing process, tingling, & a sex drive has returned. My practioner was describing how this energetic pathway can get blocked and lay dormant. She is stimulated the ren meridian energetic pathway. I truly believe you can heal & experience sacred sexuality, as we were meant to be, & release all past negative programming.
I agree with you there! A good book I once read about this topic was God Is Not Great: How Religion Poisons Everything by journalist Christopher Hitchens. (New York Times best-seller)
I agree, Slayer!
What is sacred sexuality?
An experience, where sexuality is not misused to foster domination and control, or misused for the satisfaction of greed or desire, or misused for selfish purposes, but is the experience of the sacredness of sexual force for pleasure, creativity and healing. An experience of the entwined energies of male and female merging in divine balance, and just existing in a state of "isness". It is an act of creation, either to foster human life, or to create this state of isness, which is sacred in itself.
I also want to add that it can be an experience so powerful that it can be a direct link to Source...a literal OBE!
Hmm...This article talks about energy exchange. As far as leaving dna behind, I did learn about this in my human sexuality class as a college student. There is a test that can check for number of sexual partners based on fragments of dna left behind.
Intimacy can be thought of as the want to be closer to someone all the time... first you want to be in the same room, then maybe sit on the same couch, then maybe be able to hold them. But sometimes even this is not enough. You need to be closer. You become intimate so you can share each other's space - mind, body, and soul. But why? Connectivity. The method is just flavor text.
That sounds a lot like SolarPlex's description of his experience. Sinera, have you continued to have OB experiences?I agree that it is important not to label too much. Maybe I should have made it more clear: And I am not and never was keen on any Kundalini-related experience to be honest I never tried it. It was a kind of 'accident' happening when I induced my first out-of-body experience (as said, not knowing about Kundalini then) and I did not expect this.
Actually this is even quite funny from todays viewpoint, because back then first I mistook it for the famous AP vibrations and later on in forums I read other descriptions of projectors stating that the vibrations were so nice and agreeable. I thought these people were out of their minds.
I never wanted this to be repeated.
Only later I had vibrations myself during the onset of OBE/AP and knew they were sth completely different. I can give a longer description of what I experienced as a 'symptom' at a later time.
In short: It just matched the descriptions of one symptom of Kundalini (belief) which is the 'violent' snake moving along the spine, up your torso, very 'disruptive', 1-2 seconds for each electic thrust. I had it in sleep paralysis state while inducing out-of-body experience, for a whole minute or so, two times.
Once you had this, you never forget it. And (regarding sexuality...) the movement it also felt a bit orgasmic - but without the fun. I even compared my torso then to a kind of ejaculating penis.
And later I also read this in a book whose female author I have forgotten (need to look it up) and she describes the exact same sensation / symptom happening to her. Then other descriptions also matched it, or at least in part.
I do not mind if I can label it Kundalini and/or match it to any Eastern belief system, but it showed to me back then that some of this 'energetic' heavy stuff you can experience is real and that others had it too. And that the energy bodies and chakras might be very real (although they might be belief systems too). Maybe it was not "kundalini" as such (that's why I only said it's a 'symptom') but the opening of the chakras for the first time in order to project, maybe with help of my guides. I had not started yet at that time with any kind of energy work. I had only read one book on it (Bill Buhlman) and tried the method.
If it was a chakra column opening or initation it was a very 'heavy' opening I can tell.
Or maybe a kind of initiation to show me sth - that is what Tom Campbell talks about, all kind of energetic experiences can happen then. As said above, it was also related to my first and only RTZ-projection ('etheric') where I saw my self 'for real' from the outside lying in bed (later exits were always into the Astral planes).
There's more strange obervations to this experience. Maybe this now leads too much off-topic here. I will make a thread on it soon in our AP/OBE board to describe it better.
Yes, that was an experience from 2009, my first two self-induced OBEs, and I had more normal exit OBEs (with or without 'normal vibrations') after that one, continuously.
